The Power of Peridot
We are all born with an intuitive nature, but ignore it long enough & eventually that internal instinct will be muffled by life's external bullshit. I'm not sure when I first lost touch with mine because I never had the knowledge of it in the first place, but I do know when I started gaining it back. In 2017, in the midst of a break-up, I was standing in my Buffalo apartment numbly staring at my bedroom wall when I received a very clear message from inside myself that said "GO HOME & REROOT YOURSELF". The voice was so loud that it completely took me out of my trance & suddenly I knew that's exactly what I needed to do.
After the move, I had to get reacquainted with my home base because I had been gone for a total of 7 years. It was nice to be back in familiar territory, but it was so different at the same time. It took another 2 years, but what really caused my transformation was a pivotal fight that happened between my two best friends & I. We’ve since made amends but in the moment, it hurt like hell! However now I can see just how beneficial it actually was. That argument showed me that sometimes I cover up my pain with anger. The habits I had gotten into were actually destructive to my mental health & the way I truly felt on the inside wasn't translating properly to the outside. Maybe it was that my ego had finally been deflated or that the lies I told myself were uncovered, but regardless of what it was, I am thankful for it now.
Fast forward to this exact moment. I just finished a new series where I challenged myself to only use materials currently in my studio & that "I have everything that I need" to be successful. The studs pictured below were the first thing that I made. Right now in my personal life, I am experiencing discomfort from something that is out of my control. One of the friends that I previously mentioned has suddenly ghosted me with no explanation. It’s confusing & broke my heart, but at the same time, I know that I’ve done nothing to deserve this kind of treatment. After months of analyzing, extreme frustration, obsessively wondering & then grieving for a week straight, yesterday I finally had enough. New boundaries must be made. Today, I opened my Crystal Bible by Judy Hall to read about the beautiful lime-colored stone that launched my latest series, Peridot. I read the following…
This stone is a powerful cleanser. Releasing & neutralizing toxins on all levels, purifies the mind, activates the heart chakra & releases "old baggage". Burdens, guilt, or obsessions are cleared. Peridot teaches that holding on to people, or the past, is counterproductive. Peridot shows you how to detach yourself from outside influences & to look to your own higher energies for guidance. This stone releases negative patterns & old vibrations so that a new frequency can be accessed. If you have done the physical work, Peridot assists you to move forward rapidly. This visionary crystal helps you to understand your destiny & your spiritual purpose. It is particularly useful to healers. Psychologically, Peridot alleviates jealously, resentment, spite, anger & reduces stress. It enhances confidence & assertion without aggression. Motivating growth, Peridot helps to bring about necessary change. It assists in looking back to the past to find the gift in your experiences & shows how to forgive yourself. This stone promotes psychological clarity & regulates the cycles of life. Mentally, Peridot sharpens the mind & opens it to new levels of awareness. It banishes lethargy, bringing to your attention all the things you have neglected consciously or unconsiously. With Peridot’s aid, you can admit mistakes & move on. It helps you take responsibility for your own life, especially when you believe it is all “someone else’s fault”. The influence of Peridot can greatly improve difficult relationships.
WOAH! WTF! 😆 Not only was this the exact message that I needed to receive, it’s a concrete sign that my intuition is back babyyy & better than freakin’ ever!! I couldn’t help but laugh as I kept reading. A lot had to happen in order for me to get to this point but honestly, the first word that came to my mind is contentment. I am feeling content, maybe even for the first time, because after all these years I finally I know where I stand. I’m secure within my actions & rooted in my beliefs. Not only did I follow the voice that told me to go home, but that voice has gotten stronger, sweeter & more loving. Through my journey with jewelry I am healing. When I felt lost, I kept creating & now I wholeheartedly feel found. Now that I am finished, I can see that The Source Series was a gift that I needed to give myself. The gift of following my gut, giving myself enough time/space & truly believing in my own abilities. It was a series that I didn’t even mean to make. What started as a custom request turned into a lesson beyond my expectations. One that I never saw coming, but it saw me & I am grateful. 💚XOXO, BB 🥂💝♉️
